Back in June 2017 I made a last minute decision to escape to the white isle for a month. My little one was in nursery, but an apartment become available in St Eulalia and I just booked it without too much thought. I had dreamt of travelling with Flo a lot more in her younger years but circumstances did not make it possible. It was similar to a volcano exploding and the need for Vitamin Sea!! The plan was to play in the day and sit on the beautiful balcony in the evening to write (wine ...
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Mama living with Endometriosis
This is how I would like my pelvis to look and feel. I'm so upset to say its a very different picture and not one I feel I have much control over right now. The pain in my pelvic area was getting out of control in 2016. I had not been feeling well on the right side for around a year and a dull pain was getting increasingly shocking, shooting down my leg with aggression and might. I always carried on despite pain often not listening to the truth behind its origin. I had to carry on, I ...
Introducing MOTM
Mama on the moon was conceived around 18 months ago after completing a foundation course in Psychosynthesis. I peeled the onion layers back and found the core of my wounding. It involved the mother line and some pretty heavy daddy issues. Having a breakdown whilst mothering was so challenging and I felt so alone and isolated. I didn't know where to turn. I needed nurturing and I needed to nurture my child at the same time and I just didn't know how to fill myself up. Despair and a ...
A wide eyed wonder
How did you feel when you first set eyes on your baby? In love, scared, shocked, confused? I try to think back at that exact moment four years and the imagery is blurred as is the days and hours which followed. I could not see out of my own eyes for sheer exhaustion. I can still see a pained little soul who had been through the most traumatic ordeal, she certainly didn't look serene like all the other new born babies I had seen swaddled in fresh white blankets, sleeping on their ...
Calm is a super power!
I love my son Luca - he is the most gorgeous, energetic and strong headed toddler, but I will not deny that he is hard work and his temper tantrums cause me a great deal of anxiety. I sometimes feel like I am losing the plot! To top it all off, this fast paced society we live in, my business, food shopping lists, running the household – and the all the mama stuff we do! It leaves me feeling pretty overwhelmed. Frazzled! Can you relate? So how do I calm down and centre myself? As much ...
Art as therapy
Our creativity is our life force... If we don't tap into it we kinda feel a little bit dead! This is certainly how I have felt. Motherhood has given me moments of extreme creativity but I struggle with the timing of those moments.. Sometimes I want to write for three days and not be interrupted. Its flowing out of me, burring out of me, but the daily attachment to a small child has meant I have had to stop and starts. Something at 35 years of age I'm still trying to master!! I have ...