Kerry Wilde is a Feminine Mentor, Yoga Teacher, Writer, and Heart Luminary weaving the medicine of the ancient healing arts to support women to rise in to their true power.
Integrating Reiki, Well Woman Yoga, Essential Oils, Womb Alchemy, Storytelling and Writing as the foundation of her work to help guide through healing processes and find the next steps in living with greater health, empowerment and creative fulfilment. She hosts sacred healing sessions for women online and in-person, in retreats and 1:1.
I interviewed Kerry to understand more about her journey through motherhood and her wild woman phase, juggling single motherhood with multiple wellness projects. Kerry is a multifaceted woman who has a passion for woman’s work. I loved her authentic honesty and passionate truth.
- Tell me more about your Maiden, Mother and Wild Woman journey.
I left the dance floor, met my husband went from maiden straight into mother. I was totally in shock with my first pregnancy and in no way ready to surrender my body. When i found out i was still smoking and drinking, I wanted to continue to wear my heels and go out all the time. The pregnancy was made difficult as I was in the corporate world, pushing and not listening to my body that was wanting to be heard. There came a point in that pregnancy when i just had to get still with myself and still with my baby and breath. I made a choice to birth him ina very calm and natural way and empower myself through Hypnobirth – we had a beautiful expierience and it is when i roared my first primal roar. This was the moment i met my wildest, passionate, earthy Self. Giving birth naturally through hypo birthing was my first experience of pain and bliss symbolisation. Feeling my feminine power and connection to earth supporting me. Complete Goddess energy – Wow I have this power inside me.Everything changed my maiden mask began to falter and crack. I was still very free, but still disconnected from my body. I had envisaged a knight in shining armour to save me and it kind of happened on the dance floor in literal terms, but the relationship was karmic and destined to fail. I craved for my -other (partner) to fill the void inside of me. I was looking everywhere for answers, a spiritual seeker and yet I was still numbing out with wine and TV to get through my early mothering years.
However there was a lost little girl inside, who hadn’t been loved by me. This inner child was projecting so much toxicity within the relationship with my partner and I was not listening to her needs. My son became my Guru and catalyst for becoming Mother in all her aspects, owning my expansion, my fierce, my abundance and my lioness. Growing into the Mother energy within a busy family, I chose to accept the dissolving Maiden and become a nourishing portal for the family, finding this ever expanding capacity to be the love.
In my dedicated LOA studies i had trained my mind to somehow block out the misery that i was feeling. BY always showing up with a PMA no matter what the circumstance was another vehicle for me to lose my ‘feeling body’ and numb to what was happening. I was putting on a show, a vision of the perfect family – Wearing a mask with spiritual practices. I was not embodied, i was living more on a mental plane, thinking over feeling.
My second pregnancy was different. I was more connected to my body. Breast feeding and co sleeping took its toll on me and it felt like i entered a tunnel of a dark night if the soul. My second Guru was another potent catalyst for change. What was hidden under the surface could no longer hide. I needed space to grow and evolve, but I felt trapped. I wanted to understand the fire and rage inside of me, I was trying to keep the veil over what I knew was true. . Wild Woman was waking up and i could not keep a lid on my burning truth any longer…
The Full Solar Eclipse in March 2015, shifted my reality and i could no longer attach to anything not in my truth or highest love. A torch was shining fiercely on my relationship. A force bigger than me entered my system and i felt that i had the power of an army of women. Kali cut my marriage in two – I could not hide from her, she shows you the truth. Wild woman had opened her eyes and internally was feeling all the suppression from the collective wound of the patriarchy. Working on my shadow I started to understand that projected love created so much pain for me, but I started to found love in me. Through connecting to self care and women’s circles. I realised i was a love seeker and had been externalising this force as something that belonged to someone else to give to me. AS soon as i went within i began to find the alchemy i had been searching for.
The wild woman is messy and chaotic, our emotions, power and energy has been shut down and we are taught to be nice and good. But this force is so connected to the earth, the energy of nature. I was totally disconnected from my shakti and my intuitive self. The breaking of my marriage felt totally destructive but as we learn to destroy, we can then dissolve our ego and what isn’t true within ourselves.. There is then a void space and this is the creative fertile ground. You will blossom again after destruction.
2. How do you make spirituality part of motherhood
That’s a great question because I want to know that from very other woman/mother out there how they are marrying the two (Laugh out loud). When I had my first son I was teaching Ashtanga. It was all about Asana for me, I could escape out my body and transcend to another place. I would try and do this before the school runs and shut myself off in a room. I would need privacy and my child was getting none of me. He was sat in front of the TV whilst I went into my yoga world. It didn’t feel right at all and I was consumed by guilt. So I knew this would not work for me longer term.
Rhythmic Vinyasa happened when I became pregnant with my second child. It was more of a feminine movement, moving my hips and womb. Pregnancy yoga took me into another phase of my teaching and it opened the doorway to really acknowlegde this Feminine shape in motion . It influenced my breathwork, mantra and tapping into the feeling body – a more wholesome appraoch for women. I have since trained with Uma Dinsmore Tuli, an incredible Yogini, who has written Yoni Shakti and this book supported my deep dive into Shakti wisdom and the internal process.
Now I have a daily Sadanna that looks like many different things. I practice Kundalini yoga at 5am, I do breathwork in the evening, I do embodied movement & yoga in my garden, I go into nature and lay on the earth. So my kids witness some very strange antics at home! I also practice in the evening and I have a daily mantra. Mantra has helped me find my voice and clear blocked thyroid issues.
Women are the oracles, we need to hold spaces for everyone – the men and the children. We need to be so strong and in our power to hold space and yet we need to come first. The love for ourselves has to be top of the list or the foundations crumble.
3. What is womb healing and how has this practice changed you. How can it benefit other women/mothers?
Our womb is an energetic container, a portal of creation, our sexual energy. For many centuries we have suppressed this energy and the goddess honouring in our society has vanished, she is left orbiting outside out bodies. Womb healing breaths the womb back into ourselves so divine feminine energy can flow in. It’s about balancing the archetypes, working with the energies of the maiden, the mother, the enchantress and wise queen. Balancing and harmonising the energies within our womb. A womb blessing, an attunement that connects us to the moon and the earth.
I have trained with Miranda Gray who has written booked such at the RED MOON. She writes a lot for the western woman and how we can work in harmony with our natural cycles.
I worked with my Yoni egg to heal parts of myself that I had associated with pain and numbness. Working with the womb space personally was simultaneous with my wild woman awakening journey and it is an ever unfolding path of depth . Reading Women who run with wolves by Clarissa Pinkola Estes helped me remember all the parts of myself. The wolves are the sisterhood to me, we are reflectors of each others lives.
4. So much gathering takes places in London, Do you have any advice for more isolated spiritual mamas? How they can create a tribe or village in a rural community. Can talk more about sisterhood.
I found sisterhood online. I live in Northampton and many circles happen in London. I signed up to be part of sisterhood container online. As i was on this lonely awakening journey I began to find solace in sisterhood and it allowed me to trust and connect more to women. We are all going through this collective release together.
I have more freedom now and can structure my work around my children as we share responsibility on the weekends but when it comes to illness the struggle is real. This year after a couple of illnesses I started a local group called Mama Village, just 60 mamas in my town. I wanted a space where women could receive practical experiences that were free and also a conatiner without advertising that was about receiving and giving. It’s virtual support but we voice our needs whether they are emotional, practical or spiritual and we ask each other for help when needed. I’m also organising meet ups in the woods, we walk the woods with our children. The connection to women and gathering women is one of my deepest roles within this lifetime. It’s my service and by offering this it has helped me feel more grounded. The connection with women renews and fills us up.
I also offer safe nurturing 1:1 containers for women online and in person where I create healing environments for deep connection to occur. I offer Women’s circles with Embodiment practices where women can travel from head down to heart to fully access the full spectrum radiance of their energy. This work is so necessary now.
5. Which Goddess do you relate to the most?
It’s feel resonance with so many Goddesses and Ascended Masters. The energies that speak to my soul are the ones who speak of finding truth and light through intergrating our wounded parts. I feel that understanding Innana’s story allowed me to enter the shadow parts of myself with courage when I have needed to die over again. Kali, the dark mother and has shown me the art of cutting through illusion. The power of the dark goddess has given me the strength me to not be scared of the dark anymore. There was a time I just focused on the light and wanted to be loved as Mother Mary only, but I realised all of these energies live within us and integrating many aspects has been my biggest teaching, finding Sovereignty by remembering I am a Divine Holy being has been the journey of the divine feminine – it’s not always pretty!
One of my biggest teachers is my mum and the playful dance I have enacted regressing into my teenage self. I had to track the triggers – A place of observation, looking at the reactions within myself. Owning my Mother wound and fully seeing her for the soul traveller she is. Kundalini Yoga practice has taken this shift to another level with my Teacher Guru Jagat, I cannot recommend her Immense Grace journey for women enough.
6. How do you educate and raise spirited children in a spiritual way..Your work is very feminine and you have boys. Do you involved them in practices etc
I do not hide away from my children, I find balance in what I share however they are all part of this Feminine rising on the planet, they are already so far ahead of us. So I try not to place blankets of conditioning over them, I catch myself if I am numbing their own awakeness! With technology it is a constant play.
They see my feminine wisdom and I talk to them about women’s bodies, menstruation and the womb. I take them to conscious and aware festivals and power places such as Glastonbury and Avebury. The biggest medicine for us all is the Nature, the forest is our church. We connect through nature with our feet on the earth. This is my spiritual teaching to them it’s all right here for us – In nature and inside of ourselves.
Thank you to Kerry for taking the time to chat. We resonated so much with each other. Our previous corporate roles and work in fashion industry and then the ebb and flow into motherhood and the desperate need to be in woods daily. xx